You know, it’s hard for me to put myself out there. Everyone knew I was seen to be independent. I learned to fend for myself and I liked it that way. My walls were high and indestructible. I was fearless. No one else to care for, nothing to worry about. Things were just right. Being selfish was okay with me.
Then you came along and changed that. I slowly let my walls down and let you in. But you know, these are times I miss being single.
I miss that. I loved that feeling. I don’t have time to worry about what could go wrong. I don’t have time to worry if someone is doing me wrong. I don’t want to make time for that. I’m a strong person. And I shouldn’t have to deal with these dramatic feelings. I shouldn’t have to go through these emotional roller-coasters, shedding ridiculous tears on unnecessary circumstances.
I have been blessed with an incredible family and have been lucky to have met the best friends in the world. I have everything in the world to make me happy.
When I love, I tend to love hard. And if anyone dares or wants to throw my love away, I won’t fight. There’s no room for tears. You know why? Because in the end, I’m not the one losing anything because I started off with everything from the beginning. That person is the one to lose such an amazing woman. And I promise you that.
In the end, it will hurt more than it’s suppose to. But know I’ll always be just fine.